A letter to myself.

Dearself,

It is important to know who you are, what you stand for and how you want to see yourself. I know you are tired and I am sorry that you tried so desperately to fix others when your own hands were shaking. I am sorry I did not give you enough time to heal and I let you seal the wounds of everyone else whilst your own were bleeding. I am sorry, there were the days when smiling hurt but you forced yourself to laugh so that no one had to worry about you.

I want you to be different than yourself now but not the same as everyone else you see. I know you will be humble but not crumble under the pressure that your past self has put on you. You will thrive at your own pace as a winner of your own race but not win to gain glory or fame.

The life you have for you is your chance to follow your dreams, to discover, to develop and to enjoy yourself. I really hope you will become more confidence, kind and courageous. Embrace happiness. Pursue your dreams. You are in control of your own future and the people you choose to share your life. You are secure in yourself and that is also a blessing.

I bet you never realized how strong you actually are, right? You never thought you would fight for a broken relationship and do it with pride. You never thought you would love him if he cheated on you and I bet it shocks the hell out of you that you will never stopped loving him.

Last but not least, I am sorry that I did not love you like you deserved to be loved. But do not forget me because I am where you started and I am the voice of encouragement in your ears. Live your life.

Better things are coming your way. So please, hang in there. You can do this!

Love,

Yourself.

Nothing in your life is permanent.

There will be moments where reality will hit you. Nothing in your world have ever been permanent. Things always fall apart and the memories, the mushy feelings, the unquenchable thirst will creep inside of you.

These things dragging you down will turn out to be the shards you needed to fix your broken reflection. Maybe things will flourish once and for all. Maybe you can get second, third or maybe fourth chance for a fresh beginning.

But NO, your foundation is creaking like antique hardwood floors. Something inside you will always be hollow and empty. It’s not that simple to explain, it’s not what most would see as normal and it’s something that can bring both happiness and pain.

Not one person that comes from a broken family is the same as another. Every each person’s experiences are different in many ways. There is no definition that explains what it feels like or what it means to come from a broken home.

The hard part about living in a broken family is not about the switching of houses or texting the absent parent but actually, it’s seeing happy families having dinner together or going on vacation or they simply can laugh with one another and knowing that these things will never happen to myself or to my family.

“Who gets me on my birthday? Will I see both of them on my birthday’s dinner?” No, nope. One of them is always missing and nothing can come close to filling that void.

Even though living with divorced parents are very common among our community these days but, I understood that living with divorced parents make you feel incomplete and have low self-esteem. Those who come from a broken family are used to hold their feelings in and covering it up with a smile but some of those who come from a broken home are doing their best to figure life out too, just like everyone else.

Consumer care products.

For research purposes:-

What do you NEED in your daily life to make it better?

Books? Rare overseas foods? Skincare? Make up?

None of them? Please leave any suggestions. Thank you and I greatly appreciate it.